And you were drowning,
So I held your hand,
I gripped it tight
And down I went,
But I thought I could swim.
Looking in your eyes
I felt that thing,
Love, that word from the songs
But I feel further into the deep.
And out of the corner
Of my eye
I saw white rabbits
And colourful chaos,
Creatures breathing underwater
From half forgotten
Dark fairy tales.
And the white
Rabbits turned to monsters
With red eyes,
huge teeth
Princesses turned to demons
And Princes turned To vengeful gods.
And I flickered
Somewhere between a giant
And an ant.
As you loved me,
Then hated me.
And your ever shifting view
Turned into me,
My soul depended on
storms ground
And soon it wasn’t my own.
No sleep came,
And you fell into darker waters.
The sun and sense
I drank more potions
Some made me ecstatic
Some made me hopeless.
And as I almost
Fell into the deep,
The place where I
Could see nothing
And the biggest
Most hungry monsters lived
I wanted to stop you drowning
But I had to save myself.
So I let go of your hand,
And Then I learnt to swim
The fairytale world started to fade.
And then I broke the surface
I started to swim,
At first I could see the visions,
I wanted you love back again.
But I left you behind.
The pictures came back
like a poison
or a twisted magic spell
from a children's story gone dark
my stomach would churn
I'd see your face in the dark side
of my troubled mind.
The monsters faded,
I loved and lived again,
I learnt to swim again
to live with or without love,
I become the author,
of my own tales.
